Losing it (in more than one way!)

Well as the title suggests, I am losing many things these days, but most of all seems to be my mind. I used to pride myself on being anally organized and made lists and lists about my lists, etc. I had everything laid out and planned out and it ran smoothly and like a well oiled machine. My house would be spotless and everything would be done and I'd still have time for fun. Now somewhere in the course of the last two years I have lost this balance in my life, and I so dearly miss it. I know adding kids adds chaos and a little unorganization, but I feel like no matter how oraganized my lists are these days, nothing gets done. I don't sit down all day, and I feel busy all day, but at the end of the day I can't think of anything I accomplished! How can that be? I have stacks sitting around, I'm behind I bills, paperwork for daycare, laundry, cleaning. I have junk coming out my ears and I think our house may burst from being overloaded. Though my house is still considerably cleaner than the average person, it is disgustingly below par for me and I feel very unsettled when I am at home. I can't play with my kids or have fun with Tony because I am constantly seeing things that need to be taken care of.

The next thing I am losing is time. Time is passing me by and it scares me. I feel like I am missing out on my kids lives, yet I spend 24 hours a day with them. It makes me so so so sad to think of them growing up and leaving me, because they are my very best friends, I can't imagine not having them to cuddle with anytime I want. (This is partly why I am not good about putting them in their own beds at night. I miss them and someday I can't cuddle with them like that.)

Also, there is never enough time in the day to get done what I need to. I always feel like I have wasted a day, and that makes me feel miserable because there is not enough time in our lives to be wasting them like that. I want everyday to count for something and I am tired of feeling like I am wasting them away.

The last and more positive thing I am losing (hopefully) is weight. Slowly but surely the pounds have started to drop. I officially started my weight watchers point counter last Thursday and I have stuck with it, which I am proud of I might add. Though it has only been a few days, I don't even usually make it this far. I see every day that I have made it is one more day it gets easier to do the point counting. I've already lost a couple of pounds in the last few days. I'm hoping to have lost about 60 pounds by Judd's 1st birthday.

In other news: the boys are doing great. Judd is growing like a weed, Raymond is suffering from allergies and a rash but doesn't notice and keeps his positive attitude, and Owen only has two more weeks of preschool left and is already outgrowing in length his pants from this winter. That kid is going to be so tall! Tony is doing well too, he enjoys his job and is in a very good mood because he loves "grilling season", and it is upon us!

Life in General

Okay, last post of the day. Now that I have made you all read a

booklength worth of posts, I only have one last post to share and that is our Coffey Life update.

Things have been busy here, but going well. Our yard is beginning to look better, the weather is getting nicer, and I am finally getting into a pretty good routine with the boys and my daycare having Judd here. It's been nice enough I've actually been able to take the kids outside to play.

Owen only has a month of preschool left, Raymond is talking more and more clearly and acting older every day, and Judd is growing huge! He is about to outgrow his newborn clothes already and he is only 4 1/2 weeks old! He looks a lot like Raymond, but he has Owen's eyes (shape and the color blue), he has more of Raymond's skin tone and Raymonds dark hair for the moment, but he has Owen's long arms, legs, fingers, and toes. I think he looks pretty much as I had imagined he would, a perfect combination of Owen and Raymond. I still think he will have red hair too. Just a hunch! He sleeps really good at night and is VERY laid back. He only cries when he is hungry. He has just recently been more awake during the day in the last two or three days, and he is SO observent. He also swings his arms around until he hits something and then is like, man that was cool - what did I just touch, and then he'll do it again. He also smiles alot (and I don't think it's gas!)

So here are a few updated pictures of my perfect boys! Aren't they cute?? :)

Shout out to Family!! Yeah Family!!

Well, I wanted to give a big shout out to the family for supporting us and playing with the boys and just in general being a part of our family. We all love having people come visit but the boys really enjoy having all of the family around.

So first, thank you to my mom and Kelly for staying with Tony and us for over two weeks to help take care of the house, the daycare and the boys and us before Judd came. It was nice to have company and a few extra sets of hands. I really appreciate you both being able to do that!

Second, I'd like to thank Holly, for helping me during labor (even though I was so in the "zone" I had really no idea who was doing what, I've been told you helped me a lot and I appreciate that too.) Also thanks for helping to take care of the boys and for answering all of my stupid medical questions all of the time.Next I'd like to take a minute to appreciate the the Grandpas that the boys are so very fond of! Both my dad and Jerry are very important male figures in the boys' lives and I hope they know that. The boys talk about Grandpa Sears taking them fishing and Grandpa Jerry coming to visit all of the time. So thanks to both of you for your positive influence.

Thanks to Kimberly for being here when Judd was born. I know it was on your way anyways, but I am glad you finally got to be around for one of your nephews births, even if it means they will not have any cousins now! -Ha.

I want to mostly thank Tony for being such an awesome dad, husband and best friend. I know that times we both get stressed out and things seem hectic all of the time, but I appreciate you being here to help me when you can and loving me, even when I am being anal and b*****. :) I'm sorry that I like to have things a certain way and am a perfectionist because I know at times it makes you feel like you don't do a good job when you do try and help.

I love and appreciate all of you for being a part of our family!

All Our Eggs in a Basket

Happy Easter everyone. Sorry we missed that post too! I am slowly but surely catching up on my online posts. I don't really know what is keeping me so busy because I don't ever feel like I get anything done!! -ha

The few weeks since Judd was born, have been very busy though. I took one week off of work and then jumped right back in (a girl has to make a living!). Then the 16th of March, Owen had his Spring concert at church and he does such a cute job by the way. On the weekend of Easter I decided to host a Premier Jewelry party for my friend who still sells it, so the Sat. before Easter, us girls got together for a little fun, while the boys went out partying or something! Then on Easter morning we took Judd to get baptized during the service, he didn't even flinch when the Pastor put the water on his head, he slept the whole way through. Then after church we hosted Easter lunch at our house. It was nice to have mom, dad, Kelly, Holly, Jerry, Verlyn and my family together for a big Easter lunch. We had ham and turkey and all the trimmings. The boys had an Easter egg hunt and the bunny brought them baskets with a few treats and a new toy car for each.

The Friday before Easter the boys dyed eggs and that was a lot of fun too! So it has been a jam packed week. I had to make all the preparations for everything going on, plus work, plus take care of new baby with boys that I am trying to get back onto somewhat of a schedule. Now I am frantically trying to finish our taxes the last few weeks, get my daycare license compliance check stuff in order because they usually drop in anytime in April or May unannounced, get caught up on my reading and magazines that have sat unread for the last month, and get our yard cleaned up before everything starts blooming and it gets more difficult. This is why I am trying to cram all of my updating posts into one naptime period today! So you'll have to excuse me in advance for probably not being very good at keeping up over the next month or so, until things hopefully fall back into a routine and nothing major is going on!

So I hope everyone had a great Easter and the bunny made it to all of your homes too!

St. Patricks Day (delayed)

So, I apologize for my being absent for so long. I'm sure you have all been anxiously awaiting updated pictures and stories about the boys and life with baby.

I want to take a moment to reflect upon St. Patricks Day. I think it is a silly holiday to celebrate, to be honest with you, but it's just another one of those things where people look to celebrate something they don't even know what it's about. Despite my feelings on the holiday or the lack of feelings for the holiday rather, but I do think the following pictures are hilarious and reveled in taking them because of course, they are my kids.

Tony and his boss at work had dressed up with hats and bow ties and pins to be silly on St. Paddy's day, they also had someone at work take pictures of them holding boxes of 'Lucky Charms' cereal (I have hard copies, but my scanner is not working right now). So when Tony got home, the boys thought he looked super cool and funny and wanted to dress up too. So these are the outcome of the costumes and the boys posing for the St. Paddy's day pictures. (By the way, we will now be celebrating St. Patricks day like the rest of the world, without really knowing what it means other than Leprechauns, pots of gold, shamrocks, beer and the color green - oh yeah and some St. Patrick guy) (note the sarcasm). :)